As a child, I was raised in a very traditional church with LOTS of RULES! Even so, I loved it. I remember when I was about ten years old I received first prize for the biggest smile! Sometimes my uncle would let me lead the evening worship and that was great fun! When I turned sixteen and entered grade twelve, my life took on a ‘new twist’. I was ‘grown up’ and wanted to do the things my friends were doing. They went to shows, dances, and parties that I had never been allowed to attend. I began to get angry and would lie about where I was going and what I was doing. One part of me was always a little sad because I KNEW what I was doing was wrong, but I just kept on and soon I didn’t feel as bad about it. I started smoking and did some drinking on weekends.

I left home after grade twelve and went to a large city to do my Nurse’s training. We stayed in dorms in those days and there was a large university close by. There were parties every night of the week; lots of alcohol and then drugs were introduced. God had His hand on me, even when I was running from Him as I never did get into the ‘drug scene’. I didn’t class alcohol as a ‘drug’ back then. The enemy is very ‘deceptive’ in his manipulation of our thoughts (mind-control) and before we know it, we serve him as ‘master’. It’s easy to say, “I’m a social drinker”, but if you do it often enough, the need for it to make you ‘feel good’ (like any drug) begins taking control of you.

I did get married and had two beautiful children. The alcohol and parties were still in my life and I feel this chosen lifestyle directly related to my divorce. I remarried and alcohol use increased although I could still work and look after my kids, I thought. The man I was married to was extremely abusive and I had many hospitalizations. I got pregnant with my youngest son during this season and contemplated abortion as I felt I couldn’t cope with any more. My son still lives as God once again kept His hand on me. I divorced again and decided to go back to school. I completed my Bachelor’s Degree in Nursing and also worked fulltime as a nurse. I met my husband and we ‘got to know each other’ over a year and then married. God brought Graham into my life to restore ALL that the enemy had taken from me. Graham is kind, nonjudgmental, compassionate, considerate, loving, and an excellent step-father. God has used him to show me His character and to bring His healing to my wounds.

God has continued to remain faithful. My husband and I moved to Kentucky and I was able to get my Master’s in Nursing. I now work in a rural clinic and I deal with multiple problems each day. My favorite area is working with teenagers and young adults. I see that life is very complicated for many kids out there. It is truly a ‘battlefield’ and the stakes are the ‘souls’ of the next generations. I see death often as I look into the eyes of these kids. I see many who are ‘addicted’ to ‘something’ as a way of coping with the pain they carry in their hearts and minds. How sad that we live in a world of disorder and chaos, of anger and pain. God did not intend this to happen, we ‘chose’ it.

Today I am a woman of great faith in God’s ability to change lives. He is able to breathe new life into those who are dying.

God has called me to ‘set the captives free, bring sight to the blind, and hearing to the deaf.' He uses my gifts and training to bring deliverance to those bound up in Satan’s control and deception.

God wants to use me to bring healing to the pain deep within your heart. Please, CHOOSE LIFE!

ABOUT THE MUSIC------

Jan Cox was born August 6, 1951. At 14 months of age she contracted polio and from that time was on crutches and in braces. She worked most of her adult life as a dispatcher for the Ann Arbor, Michigan fire department and loved her job. Jan was always a ‘go-getter’ and loved a party. Her Mom said she could out-drink many and she was also mixed up in a lot of drug abuse.

One weekend (early 90’s) she came to Kentucky and took her sister-in-law to Oklahoma. On her way back she hit a truck-trailer. She remained in a coma for a month. In her recovery time, the neurologists said she would always remain in a wheelchair; never to walk again. Her Mom said that there was one time she did stand and walk, but that was all. Along with her inability to walk, Jan was also unable to control her emotions. She could be laughing and on ‘a high’ one moment and the next moment be tearful and angry.

In October of 1995 Jan accepted Jesus into her life. It was right after this that I met her and actually worked with her as a patient off and on. She would come screeching into the parking lot with her customized van and then come rolling up the ramp in her electric wheelchair. Sometimes I’d be facing bright smiles and laughter; sometimes tears and frustration.

I remember it was in 2002 that she came sailing in with her new recording of “It’s Just a Simple Gospel”. She told me that God had ‘down-loaded’ the words into her heart and she picked out the melody on her guitar. Her friend, Ben Faust, helped her with the arrangement of the music and he also became her ‘band and back-up’. Jan believed God would intervene in the resources she’d need to put it into a professional recording, but it never came to pass. Many who listened felt it was pretty simplistic and ‘out of tune’. From the first time I heard it, I knew it was anointed by God. His message is SIMPLE. God wants even a CHILD to understand it. Man has made it so complicated that even people who have attended church for years get ‘confused’ by the message that’s often preached from the pulpit.

I believe God brought Jan into my life for ‘such a time as this’. I believe God WILL send Jan’s song of the ‘simple gospel’ around the world as she dreamed He would. And, I KNOW that Jan is in heaven right now applauding, dancing (on two healed and perfect legs and with a mind that is JUST LIKE CHRIST’S), and screaming at the top of her lungs, “GO GOD, GO!!” Jan died on Valentine’s Day, February 14, 2005 and I miss her.